Posted in Truths that Suck on June 22, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I am going to let someone find this blog.
I am angry and hurt so I am going to let them see it. I am not sure what one has to do with the other. Maybe they need to see it. Maybe they don’t. Maybe it won’t change a fucking thing. But for some reason I [...]
Posted in Adoption, Cool Blogs, Truths that Suck on June 12, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Now I am not a huge commenter on blogs. I lurk, alot. I’m just as shy on the internet as I am IRL. I didn’t used to be. Its just something that happened over the years.
Two blogs I liked….ALOT….are gone. I never really commented but I LOVED reading the 2 ladies writings. In the last [...]
Posted in Crazy Life, Remebering, Truths that Don't Suck, Truths that Suck on June 11, 2008 | 1 Comment »
I’m not going to talk about obvious adoption-related holes. Now come anyone who has placed carries those holes. ANYONE WHO HAS LOVED ANYONE HAS THOSE HOLES. We all have people-shaped holes in our hearts. Everyone. Lost friends, lost loved ones, in death or just in growing apart.
But we also have “thing” shaped holes. I’m not [...]
Posted in Adoption, Crazy Life, My story, Pregancy, Remebering, Truths that Suck on June 8, 2008 | No Comments »
One thing that amazed me about choosing adoption is how many roadblocks I came up against. When I was pregnant I was set on it. When I am set on something, I don’t change my mind. Although I am not sure I made the right decision NOW. All the counseling in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD [...]
Posted in Adoption, Crazy Life, Pregancy, Truths that Suck on June 3, 2008 | No Comments »
Our house was cheap. A nice for the money. But once the decision to go with adoption had been made and I had chosen BR and BA, things were tense to say the least.
I was afraid to tell L about my decision. I had told R and he agreed, based on how L was acting [...]
Posted in Crazy Life, Leap Of Faith, My Awesome/Asshole Boyfriend, My Job Sucks, Truths that Don't Suck, Truths that Suck on June 3, 2008 | No Comments »
Today we met with, if all things go right, (ohpleaseohpleaseohplease!!!) our new landlord. The house was ehhhh….ok. It wasn’t the nicest to be honest. BUT, and this is HUGE but, I loved EVERYTHING ELSE ABOUT IT!! Its on an acre of land. (I lived on an acre once before and my ex sold the property, [...]
Posted in Adoption, Crazy Life, My story, Pregancy, Remebering, Truths that Suck on June 2, 2008 | No Comments »
My family had also denied me any help financially or in any other way. My mother later denied that and said that she bought various “baby items” when I planned on parenting. She never told me of this until a few months ago.
So here I was……stuck in a bad position. I had no insurance, a [...]
Posted in Adoption, Crazy Life, My Awesome/Asshole Boyfriend, My story, Pregancy, Remebering, Truths that Suck on June 1, 2008 | 2 Comments »
B, the constant in my life. Who I still write about does fall into this story.
In fact in MOST of the stories in my life there is a place for B. Although in this story I don’t remember where exactly he falls. So I chose to add him here. It was sometime around this time, [...]
Posted in Adoption, Crazy Life, Pregancy, Truths that Suck on June 1, 2008 | No Comments »
D, our manager, found out I was pregnant. She also found out a couple of other things too. About the parties that had been happening. Although now that I was pregnant the partying had stopped altogther. We realized our actions DID have consequences! SURPRISE!! She also found out R and I had been sleeping together and that. [...]
Posted in Crazy Life, My story, Pregancy, Remebering, Truths that Suck on May 30, 2008 | No Comments »
I was uninsured. And pregnant. A scary prospect. I had gone to the local clinic for an “offical” pregnancy test, which confirmed what I already knew. I was about 2 months pregnant. They gave me an approximate due date………May 5th. I was reassured I would qualify for state aid. “Just go apply! everyone said, “You’ll [...]
