Posted in Adoption, Crazy Life, My story, Pregancy, Remebering, Truths that Suck on June 8, 2008 | No Comments »
One thing that amazed me about choosing adoption is how many roadblocks I came up against. When I was pregnant I was set on it. When I am set on something, I don’t change my mind. Although I am not sure I made the right decision NOW. All the counseling in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD [...]
Posted in Adoption, Crazy Life, Pregancy, Truths that Suck on June 3, 2008 | No Comments »
Our house was cheap. A nice for the money. But once the decision to go with adoption had been made and I had chosen BR and BA, things were tense to say the least.
I was afraid to tell L about my decision. I had told R and he agreed, based on how L was acting [...]
Posted in Adoption, Crazy Life, My story, Pregancy, Remebering, Truths that Suck on June 2, 2008 | No Comments »
My family had also denied me any help financially or in any other way. My mother later denied that and said that she bought various “baby items” when I planned on parenting. She never told me of this until a few months ago.
So here I was……stuck in a bad position. I had no insurance, a [...]
Posted in Adoption, Crazy Life, My Awesome/Asshole Boyfriend, My story, Pregancy, Remebering, Truths that Suck on June 1, 2008 | 2 Comments »
B, the constant in my life. Who I still write about does fall into this story.
In fact in MOST of the stories in my life there is a place for B. Although in this story I don’t remember where exactly he falls. So I chose to add him here. It was sometime around this time, [...]
Posted in Adoption, Crazy Life, Pregancy, Truths that Suck on June 1, 2008 | No Comments »
D, our manager, found out I was pregnant. She also found out a couple of other things too. About the parties that had been happening. Although now that I was pregnant the partying had stopped altogther. We realized our actions DID have consequences! SURPRISE!! She also found out R and I had been sleeping together and that. [...]
Posted in Crazy Life, My story, Pregancy, Remebering, Truths that Suck on May 30, 2008 | No Comments »
I was uninsured. And pregnant. A scary prospect. I had gone to the local clinic for an “offical” pregnancy test, which confirmed what I already knew. I was about 2 months pregnant. They gave me an approximate due date………May 5th. I was reassured I would qualify for state aid. “Just go apply! everyone said, “You’ll [...]
Posted in Crazy Life, My story, Pregancy, Remebering, Truths that Suck on May 29, 2008 | No Comments »
The end of September was when I realized something was missing. My period.
I realized it sitting at Sonic eating Cheddar bites with K. (like I said before WHY we remember small stupid things is AMAZING!) We were talking about L and G. Both had blown us off pretty badly. I had tried to hook up with [...]
Posted in Crazy Life, My story, Pregancy, Remebering on May 29, 2008 | No Comments »
Things didn’t change. Why should they? Everything was great. Summer was drawing to a close and it was started to get colder outside so our partying did slow down a bit. I remember now my period should have come around the begining of September it came and went without me noticing though.
Something else happened around [...]
Posted in Crazy Life, My story, Pregancy, Remebering, Truths that Suck on May 29, 2008 | No Comments »
During the summer we partied more. I remember sitting in R’s front yard on lawn chairs listening to Hank Williams Jr “All my Rowdy Friends have Settled Down”. LOL, Ironic right?
I can’t remember but I think it was my 20th birthday. Or else it was few weeks before. I was hanging out with K and R. [...]
Posted in Adoption, Crazy Life, My story, Pregancy, Remebering, Truths that Suck on May 29, 2008 | 3 Comments »
DISCLAIMER—–So I’m going perpetuate the birthmom myth, “Birthmothers have wild and crazy out of control lives, with drugs and alcohol.” SIGH. I hate doing it, but to tell my story I have to be truthful. The things I am going to tell are not things I am proud of. They are not pretty. But they changed me [...]
