Love Thursday…Love againist all odds

When talking to one of my friends from high school last night, he informed me another one of our old friends had reccently joined Myspace. She wants our “old crew” to have a reunion and has requested most of them to be her friend, including my close friend S. Ironically, not me. I’m waiting, we’ll see but not holding my breathe.
To anyone reading this your probably thinking “What the HECK does this have to do with Love Thursday? Sound more like Hate Thursday to me!!”
Nope, its all about love because of the reason WHY I believe she may not have requested me. My Myspace is filled with love, love for the the love of my life. (that’s alot of LOVE in one sentence!!) In high school we had, at best, a VERY voilet relationship. I will admit I shed alot of tears over the man. Fifteen years later and a night long conervsation filled with ALOT of explaining, I understand what he did that I thought was hurtful, really wasn’t. In fact his intentions were out of love for me. And what our future could hold…..together.  He loved me then and he loves me now. His story and why he did what he did,  is just that HIS and its very personal. Some of the things he went through were bad, I knew they were bad then, but I just didnt know how they affected him. I haven’t decided if I will share his story it here.
He didn’t know we would find each other 10 years later, but he hoped. He was wise engough beyond his years to know, then in midst of chaos, was not the time to start a life together. And now? I love him for what he saw. What I was too blinded by teenage love to see.
My friends? The ones that may or may not request me on MySpace? When then see us together on my page? I’m sure they still hate him. Because, yes, he broke my heart in a million pieces in high school. They never understood WHY I kept him as a part of my life.  ANd now? They probably still don’t. Something just tells me to. I can’t explain it. But when he came to me 7 months ago and laid it on the line, I welcomed him with open arms. Could I have not believed him? Yep. Could I have said, “AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO ME??? FUCK OFF!!!”? Sure could have. Has it been easy? HECK NO. We both have a truck load of baggage. We fight and he still drives me insane as ever. But at the end of day, when he’s home in bed and we talk and he makes me laugh, its all worth it.
So if I am left out of the “reunion” so be it. Don’t judge me. I let you judge me then, I won’t now.
Life was stacked against us. It still is. But we beat the odds everyday and I hope we keep beating them.